My plan

So Josh is definitely going to beat me in this whole "Lose weight" deal we made. I don't think I'm fat so I just told myself, ok eat a little less and do a little more and you will lose it. I didn't take my then 15 pounds serious, now

currently

I am engaged
I am starting my internship at the Jacksonville Zoo and gardens tomorrow
I am living with josh, yay
I am a mommie to a our dog kahlua
I am going to graduate in the fall from the university of florida
I am more than content

My friendship situation

I don't feel like I am doing well with my friends right now.
I have been slacking and been selfish to some but have avoided others for good reason.
I need to get out of my anti-social slump and get out there a bit more. I have become content with the wide variety of movies I can watch on my 5 HBO channels and left the cold to others.
I have used school as an excuse and told everyone I am too busy, which i kind of am. I need to do a better job with time management to be able to juggle my 25 hours of class, work and studying to be able to make some time for my friends and not just the television.
I haven't been hanging out with poonam because I do NOT enjoy interacting with megan and she is in between us, and poonam is going out more so I don't really see her at night either.
We are starting to grow apart.
Then Casey comes into the picture and we have been spending a lot of time together. Now I just need a break and I don't want to keep getting told what I say isn't valid just because she doesn't agree.
Those were my two best friends who are starting to fade a bit from me and I either need to get them back or make new friends.
I really need to hang out with shelly and the boys more because I miss them and don't go over there much. I am kind of done with drinking everyday and that is all they do.
What is a girl to do?
I still have my work friends I suppose...

Throwing it out there

I think I should let everyone, as in David and Corey, know what is going on.
I am happy.
I am not making a mistake. I may be foolish but everyone takes chances for their own reasons.
I am going to be dealing with a lot of backlash from my crazy family and would love it if my friends, who love both Josh and I, could be happy for us.
We are happy. This isn't a game, we aren't gambling for the hell of it, it's real.
Maybe I really needed to say this for myself and maybe I need people to know how I feel.
I love Josh, I never stopped and now I know I never will.

Perturbed

I am a little upset.
Look, I will support our new president. Obama will bring some change I am sure and I am a little excited to see how he handles himself and our country. I am very worried about American citizens and why it is that he really won.
Facts:
1) This election has created a 7.3 increase in voter registration and a record turnout. The only time in history more people have voted in a presidential election was in 1960!
2) The last time this many Americans wanted to have their voices heard was when another celebrity democrat was running for office, you all may remember J.F.K.
3) 95% of African American voters picked Obama, big surprise!
4)Black voters jumped 7& this election, that can not be refuted. It is fact. You can say what you will be if there were not an African American candidate that increase would not have been so high.
5) white voters fell this election while minorities increased. In the meantime total voters increased by the millions from the last 2 elections.

The truth of the matter is
a) black people voted for Obama when they have never voted before because he is black.
b) white people who are ignorant voted for obama because they believe a celebrity over an experienced, trustworthy candidate.
c) people just wanted change in general, ignorant people look at something bad and think well we'll vote for the opposite of what we have because that will be good. Most people have no clue what Obama's policies are they just wanted "change".

This country is full of morons and I am sad that our country may suffer because our desire to be new and different. Our love of celebrities and vulnerability to a good stuffed shirt with an excellent speech.
One of the things Bush was most criticized before his war fucks ups was his inability to speak intelligently in front of the public, well America wants a charismatic man, they got one.

why christians are sometimes stupid

I am a Christian, just to clarify the subject.

I read a few of my Christian friend's facebook status and was very disappointed.
1) a lot of people are saying they don't care who wins the election they just want God's will to be done.
this is ignorant for several reasons.
a) God's will will be done whether you want it to be done or not, if you read the bible you would know that.
b) Not caring what happens to your country is just not patriotic, God wants people who love him, that doesn't mean you can't care about anything else.

I hate that and it really pisses me off that so many Christians want to seem as if the only thing they care about is God. That is fine if you love God with your whole heart and every thing but you can't stop caring about your country and your life.
Our next president is more than likely going to be Obama. I am scared for this country's safety. I am not going to Canada or Mexico but I am a little perturbed by the people who are putting their trust in this man.
I trust God and his will but that doesn't mean I don't care what happens to the rest of the country.
Get some brains Christians or you'll never win smart people over to God and we'll just have rednecks and idiots.

My plots

I am plotting to get rid of my hated roommate.
Megan has got to go. It has to be her that leaves because she is the only one who makes enough to find another place, she is making both mine and Poonam's life a living hell and it is two against one.
strength in numbers my friends.

The plot started out as a joke but the more the giant-turkey-like awkwardness continues the more the hostility in the air becomes thick enough to cut with a knife.

Seriously, we both hate her. She is ridiculous and bitchy and she has to go.
My plan begins with a cat. Simple and crazy.
She claims to be allergic to cats. Well, I guess we'll find out?
Poonam and I can me mary kate and ashley olson from it takes two and just piss megan off enough to leave on her own accord thus not making it a legal issue.
It's a full proof plan.
Man, I wish I had the guts to start with bringing home that cat, whose name is Elphaba by the way.

The time of my life

The best time of the year is definitely here.
I can feel it in the air.
I can taste the excitement.
I can feel my heart expanding.
I can breathe deeper and love stronger.
Life is good because Fall is here.
Halloween is here.
The holidays are coming and that makes me extremely happy because that means it is family time!!!
The end of the semester is coming and my head is way above water.
Josh is in my life.
I am praising God everyday for everything Jesus does for me.
How could life possibly get better...besides getting rid of my crazy roommate.

What I would say

So the slutty trash whore (that's her new name) wrote me a nice myspace message. She proceeded to call ME a loser, say that I am overweight (i'm 105lbs), called me disgusting, and in detail discussed her sexual acts with josh.
Everything rolled off my shoulders except for the detailed sex details. That of course made me sick to my stomach and made her the pettiest bitch ever.

I will never stoop to her level. I have far too much class, I am far from a loser, Not at all over weight and a quite attractive if I may say so myself. Not to mention I am 4 times closer to being everything I want to be and getting everything I want from life than she ever will.

I can say with utmost confidence that if I were half as bitchy as she is I would have texted her months ago calling her out for the trash that she is. I didn't call her, text her, stop to see her, email or message her. I did nothing because I am above that. She hurt me with her actions far more than I could ever have done to her.

I don't think she realizes that SHE was the other woman, although at this point with her I.Q. and immaturity I am not sure woman is the right word for her.
I am pretty sure she is the one who is heaver than me, and who never graduated high school and is not attending one of the top 20 universities in the country.

If I did say something to her it would go a little like this...
Girls like me get what they want out of life, the job they want, the friends they want, meet the goals they have and find the love they want. Guys want girls like me forever.
Girls like you are the mistakes boys make. Girls like you end up with an std and working in a restaurant till you die.

Who's the loser now Bitch?
(don't worry, I would never send this to her. There is no need, life will speak for me)

IF...

If I were on The Office I would be pam. I would be on the party planning committee and create the finer things club. I have been planning parties like a mad woman lately and trying to be classier.
If I were on desperate housewives I would be bree because I am increasingly becoming more ocd.
If I were a super hero I would be a villain actually. I would be poison Ivy because I am a nature person and I think she is hot.
If I were a character in a broadway play I would be Elphaba because I am an animal activist and stand up for what I believe in.
If I were an animal I would be a dog because I am ridiculously loyal even after beaten with a stick and give unconditional love to my people.
If I were exactly the person I wanted to be I would be me.