Alright, I admit it I drank tonight. Did I drink more than I should have, probably. I haven't had alot to drink in a while its been about 4 months since I knew my limit.
I got into a fight with carmen who judged me for talking to mike under the covers of a bed while poonam was in the next room. Never mind the fact that we were just talking...
I got annoyed and talked to casey and mike about my troubles of never meeting a guy who will be as good as I thought Josh was and all of a sudden I am pegged as a whore who has betrayed my best friend and roommate.
So now I am in trouble for things I didn't even do. I hate my life because when I am sober I hide my feelings from the world and try to hide my pain from him and our friends. The truth is I am too drunk to be talking at all but she made her facebook profile public so I saw it and Now I have to realize that I am better than her. I am prettier than her, skinnier than most of her pictures thanks to my depression. Thank you to Josh, I am 20 lbs skinnier. I have much bigger breasts. I am alot classier than her, besides this blog. I have much more to offer any man than she does. sex is not included because there is more to life than fucking someone so often and without care that they turn their back on what really matters and who really cares about them.
Fuck it all.
Moved.
15 years ago
2 comments:
Fuck it all...
I couldn't have said it better myself.
in the words of ben, "oh wow." life is rough, i'm getting fed up with problems, so i can't say that i blame you for taking out your frustrations. but maybe drinking is not the most (mentally) healthy thing to do. im still here for u.
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