tired

I am still up and I blame my friend Corey. I read his blogs and watched some porn that was linked on one of the blogs and now I can't go to sleep because I watched porn for an hour. some of it was gross and some of it was very tasteful and actually very good. I have something I need to admit...I love porn. I don't allow myself to watch it often because I feel dirty and kind of like a whore. But when I actually do watch it, horny emotions quickly follow. Ok, seriously Porn gets me hot. I'm sure it gets everyone hot but for me to admit this and truly believe it, well thats a huge step against my outward prude appearance that I keep up.
So, I watched some porn and the funny thing is I didn't masturbate. I don't like to masturbate, this may seem weird but I like the feeling of being horny and have all that raw and pent up energy just floating at the surface.
I was also getting some tips on how to better have sex. I have only had one partner and I don't think I'm very good at sex and today I realized why...I'm kind of lazy I gotta get off my ass and out from underneath, get on top and start doing some work.
Unfortunately i'm clumsy so it usually is awkward when i do try to but That shouldn't stop me ...i should keep trying.
Therefore...next time i will be on top and I will use the tips I learned today from big boobed bimbos.